it's just so hard to love someone or even just pleasing them. Many times you try but many times you will fail too. there are always bound to be factors in ur life that doesnt makes things goes smoothly. Like there can never b peaceful sailing thru deep seas with big waves in the ocean. people dies becoz of shipwreak. And even nature. for e.g. in the woods, nobody harms the trees in the forest but mishaps like forest fires do happens. That applys too in human life. shit happens but u just need to know how to deal with it. what im talking abt is emmotions. it's always hard to control without the love of God. does it make sense to you?

anyways, just mentioning abt God, i dont feel lonely anymore.. so enough of blogging. byebye.

hi peeps, it's just another day at work. so boring that i really can't stand it. have been doin the work of a bangla for more than a week including sundays and thts terrible. Hammering, nailing, sawing, and carrying heavy loads is really not for me. now i realli know how wld a bangla feel when he works. oh well but a bangla definately earns more than i do now. haha. doing all these just to save SAF $16k. anyways, that is life for me in NS now is still 8-5. Still enjoying the nights out and the feeling of eating home cook food before my course resumes somewhere in mid march.

was bored sometime ago in NS and i was reading this book title , "run baby run" which i had since my sec sch days but never got myself into reading. This book is good and somehow made me reflect how God is so marvellous that he wont give up on us even how rotten we may be. The story is abt this boy who hates everything including his parents that he left home. And everywhere he goes and even in sch, he was a misfit becos he just hates everything. And so he turn to the gangs for acceptance. And when he was in it, he had the respect of his gang members but there was no love in him. he just hates everything. But God Sent someone to love him and touch his life tht he dedicated his life to Jesus. Since then he attended bible classes and even set up a youth centre when he graduated and God cont to use him to touch the lives of others and to minister in streets. His life changed since then .. he too had a loving wife.. to find out more... read the book !! haha.. From a junkie, he became a man life jacob to cont to pursue God and not let go.. it's like Whoaa.. so just an encouragement for those who reads my blog or happens to noe this link .. God loves U ! and no matter how lousy u feel.. he is in control of all situations.

okay... this is a botak pic of me.. looks yucky ! but i absolutely love these blokes whom i had fun with playing blokus.. and i love my gf too .. happy valentines dae love.