look at the title: when God speaks, you need to know how to decern! Seriously i really do not know how to. it is way past midnite and i just cant slp. dont really have the peace of mind to do that. It has been mind blogging over certain issues for the past few days. What are you here for on earth have u ever wondered? why do u really need to study or work so hard. or you can say, why does he have to put boys through the army. For some, life is rosy but for the unlucky, life is bad. i just heard news that i would be revocated to become an RP (no brainer and tough job) at GSAB (some amour unit) on the 25th Oct and this is really scaring me the fact that life aft the first 3 mths was indeed good. Upon hearing this news, my heart dropped and i decided to try all ways and means to run away from this. i really do not want to revocate. i had to seek help from the top 2 pple in my unit and all the necessary pple in the admin office just to get the job done for me. but things do not really go my way cos ultimately, this is my problem and not theirs. Men are selfish beings. it's human to be like tht. So, i took matters on my own hands and decided to see the medical officer to get something out of it. (im now waiting for the final verdict). i do hope is a successful to become an ASA estab.
but in the process is torrid! yes i do pray fervently abt it. i do ask God to SHOW me what is his plans for me. i just need to hear from him. Just sharing with u one of the passage from my QT. it goes, its whole strength lies in the fact that here you are put into soak before God. you have no idea of where God is going to engineer your circumstances, no knowledge of what strain is going to be put on you either at home or abroad, and if you waste your time in over-active energies instead of getting into soak on the great fundamental truths of God's redemption, you will snap when the strain comes; but if this time of soaking before god is being spent in getting rooted and grounded in God on the unpractical line, you will remain true to him whatever happens.
kinda speak to me. Moo heard tht im revocating too and he seeked me to go for it. but im Scared. it's scary to not know what's life like ahead of you. and when u ask around of where ur new unit is and where is it situated. nobody knows, not even the chief clerk who recieve the posting order for me. seriously no one noes. but for sure i knew that God knows. this is what he said aft deciding to check my blog b4 QT time. it says: "Faith does not panic, but realizes that what looks like devastating circumstances may be God's plan to bring glory to Himself by demonstrating His power." this also made me wanna type an entry abt it.
anyone who reads this or prolly it's just me reading it since i dont realli tell pple abt this blog, SO WHAT DOES ALL THESE REALLI MEANS. also during QT todae, i read, is God's will my will. It is not a qn of whether God is willing to sanctify me, is it my will? am i willing to let God do in me. . . . . . . .
oh well i really do not know. all i know is that i have this upcoming 4 days to have a proper rest in HIM above.
other than that, life has been excellent for me. was Great to start playing in the worship band again although this time to a different age grp. i guess im a very blessed child of God.
so you can pray for me:
- i will not feel stress abt army life
- God will speak to me in a dream or speak audibly to me abt his plans for me
- i will be able to listen out to God's calling
- God will grant me wisdom to manage my time and friends well
- God will give me a ministry
May the Good lord bless you and keep you. SHALOM!
