im using my camp's computer now. Went for a late lunch today after deciding not to join my camp friends for lunch. Sitting down alone on an unoccupied bench, eating the rice which feels comes in lumps, all i felt was bitterness and emptiness everywhere. looking around starring at people having their meals, it feels like many monkeys in green being confine in the stupid cage waiting for their day of freedom. i felt sad esp for this army guy who eats lunch himself everyday for at least the past yr. doesn't he have any friends to eat with? is his 10 or 20 yrs more of army life going to be a bore? or maybe he just enjoys his time alone. where are his friends? does he have friends that will be concern abt his life? does he have real friends? true friends? i really dont know. And while sitting there for lunch, i receive sms from friends playing me out for some sports events, from pple telling me tht i have some meetings that i need to attend and stuffs that i need to do. WOW whee.. BTW, i got this friend of mine that walks into my office everyday to collect his printouts and all he will say to me is LIFE SUCKS! feel like boxing him sometimes.

Looking at life in general, i guess that it has full of agendas to complete, earning a living to go by, mundane daily routines, SHORT, and the list goes on and on. lastly, God's purpose to follow. Sometimes i feel that why not die now so that you have no worries and you can be closer to God. HAha.. wonder is it foolish thinking of me. i guess so cos there is still many more things i need and want to do in life.

Exactly 10 more days for my trip to Taiwan. I'm quite excited about it that i can go abroad to be free from the hectic lifestyle demands of Singapore the fact that im still troubled abt some other issues. But My God is A BIG God and he handles situations so nicely that i know all things will just fall in place for me.

Haha.. my entry feels like i'm suffering from depression! Grace of God fall fresh on me, my love ones and to the one reading this. haha. =)