The Life Of Mine.

My Current thoughts

2009-01-25T07:58:00.000-08:00

Feeling so Stressed upz out of a sudden! feels like im growing way too fast and time flies! I feel like i owe the World a living! Im only in my early 20s and I have so many BILLS to PAY for! University Sch fees, Poly loans, Hand-phone bills, credit card outstanding, daily meals, transportation, entertainment and many other nitty gritty stuffs! This sometimes drives me crazy when i come to think of it! What makes matter worse is that the world is in Recession and that makes me unable to maximize my returns in investments! SHUCKS!

Oh well! I can understand how stress parents would be when the family is going through a financial crisis and kids being ignorant do not understand the situation or the reality of the World and keeps crying foul for a better living! hmmm... i guess i used to be like that! I thank my mom for getting me that expensive Guitar of mine during tough times years back. I guess it paid off cos my talents were made into gd use !

I'm going back to reservist soon and I'm quite excited about what I will be doing there and im more excited about my trip to China! I wonder how would I be coping in sChool But i'll pray abt it.

Been Spiritually LOW in fuel. Prolly sch work is mounting or money woes! I really dunno! But i still thank God for the many blessings!

PRayer request

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1) regular QT

2) family bonding

3) Good grades in School

4) more money

5) pray that God show me a miracle when im in China!

IT CRASHED !!

2008-06-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

This is the day it CRASHED on me. sighh** whyyy me.. =(

FREEDOM

2008-05-24T09:15:00.000-07:00

finally a burden lifted off me. Exam is finally over. Had seafood at some ulu part of clementi with my school friends ytd. Had ice-cream at Bens and Jerrys after finding out that daily scoop was full of pple.

Today's Bag day and tmr's lego shopping at TAKA!! WHoo hooo !!! GREAT SINGAPORE SALE AND MORE DISCOUNTS FOR TAKA MEMBERS! Check out my new toy soon. =)

Today is a holiday

2008-05-18T20:20:00.001-07:00

It's a holiday today and it's also great Singapore Sale. Here i am blogging as im stuck at home revising for my upcoming exams due in 2 days time. Havent really been concentrating. Been thinking of getting myself a bike, yet on the other hand, i feel like spending on guitar effects to make myself sound more pro! which shd i do? Maybe not get the bike so that i will have less chance is dying =)

HOW? i think i better get back to books.

just ranting.

just some thoughts

2008-05-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

Had High tea at Carlton Hotel this afternoon. Suppose to have a dialogue session with the GM and HODs, but it ended up with a meal without any agenda. Nevertheless, FOOD IS GREAT! And it's FREEeee! pretty enjoy the sashimi provided! The company should have more of such great deals.

Exams are round the corner! im just so unprepared! I really think im in deep trouble. But it doesnt make sense to sit down doing nothing to cry foul. I need to do some action and reflection soon before it's too late.

Work has always been on my mind. It's so pressuring when many people expect you to deliver! It just seems so HArrddd... Also, if i dont, i would probably lose in the race that i'm competing in right now. hmmss.. Just Hope and pray that God will grant me favor. =) MY ONLY HOPE. haha. However, on the other hand, im pretty much enjoying what im doing. Feels good planning for people's basic financial and insurance needs in life. Helping them to grow their wealth and have sufficient for the future is a joy to me.

Who Am I ?

2008-04-03T23:33:00.000-07:00

I have turned into a workaholic! I am turning OLD! Wrinkled face! Big Belly! Yikes. can u even remember how I look like?

This is Me. The one on the extreme right. =)

prince and princess

2007-06-10T04:40:00.001-07:00

if God is the King of Kings.. doesn't it make us princes and princesses? =)

Ohana Camp was great! a Good time to relax, replenish, restore and recuperate from the hectic life in singapore. So much work to do and little time to study. But that's life! Made many new little friends which was so enjoyable. (if i have the pics of the pple, i will post them up) sometimes i which that i could turn back the clock and go back to my teenage days and live it to the fullest once agn! haha.

anyways, overseas exercise in taiwan was really sHIOK! weather was good, Food and pple there are just so awesome. now that im blogging, i left with more than a mth in service. effectively less than 30 working days out from the army before a new and exciting path of life awaits for me! =)

:cannot wait cannot wait cannot wait cannot wait!: =)

Just some thoughts:
1) do you all know the feeling when you are being slain by the holy spirit?
- definitely not a push from someone that is praying for you. This is what i felt when i went up for prayer. It is not exactly what i hope for. Talking abt being slain by the holy spirit. It is something extraordinary that i cant really explain. Once, a pastor prayed for me. the power/ HS was so strong that my limbs were just too weak to keep still and i just fell flat to the ground with non-stop rain from my eyes. But those of you who go up to receive pray and see other pple fall but not you. it doesnt mean anything cos God minsters to you in many different ways.

2) i miss leading my cell boys.. =) shd i take up cell leading agn?

Prayer request:
1) pray for me that i will pass my exams on wed!
2) pray that i will have the discipline to study hard for it! haha
3) pray for discernment if God wants me to take up cell leading agn or would he want me to concentrate what im doing in life rite now or prolly in other ministries.

:ARMY:

:Red sea toilet roll man:
(he's famous)
Haha, so funny, btw this was the station i was assigned to.

:after shopping:

taiwan's weather is GOod!

2007-04-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

it's "han liu" in Taiwan now and the temperature is as low as 12degrees. IT'S 12 DEGREES U NOE!!! a few days back was 31!!!! Prox will last for the most a week, but im happy with it alr cos in SG, i dun get to experience such nice weather. i hope it stays this cold till i get back to sg.

im feeling quite emo now sitting infront of the laptop typing this blog, listening to love songs of God, sipping a cuppa coffee and just chilling out. Everything just seems so perfect! whoo.. i like it i like it. haha.. hope everydae is like tht!

got scolded for trying upload taiwan photos into my blog. so sorry, no photos!! =)

10more days and ill be back in SG. so many things i need to do. study for investments, going for interviews, preparing for worship for the following sunday, catching up with frens and EAT !!!!
im getting FATTER! ohh noo... ohh i tried many food when im here like taiwan's tempura (it sucks), pig's blood (yumyum), chicken backside( so crispy), betel nut(makes u high), and many other stuffs la. haha..

okie.. tht's all.. poof!

additonal text to the previous post

2007-03-25T21:54:00.000-07:00

ohh .. to update, on my first recce exercise trip, my VEHICLE broke down halfway due to oil leak and had to be towed away. so didnt get to experience much. And they commented that i was the jinx to tht vechicle. Wad rubbish rite. And life here, you wake up at 545am and worked all the way till midnite! what life is this man.. obviously is exploiting ME !! hmmm had a ran to the BIG BUDDHA which is abt 5km away on the hilltop. ill take a pic and load it up when i come back! it's a challenge for me but nice to run early in the morning esp when the weather is aint tht HOT. say 20Degrees? but when it comes to noon time it can be CRAZY!!

played soccer ytd evening. but just 3mins into the game, the ball flew hard and fast into my face which caused me a scar on my face!! =( ohh noo .. not handsome anymore! HOW now !?

ill try to update if i can!

15more days in camp

2007-03-25T21:40:00.000-07:00

MANY MANY MORE DAYS TO the END OF MEILIN CAMP STAY. 15more days!! im still surviving in this camp. Using the net now as no one is in camp except the signallers, storeman and the clerk which is ME!

pray request:
pray tht my left leg will be healed. Since captains ball tournament, my left knee is suffering from servere pain. upon bending it, im unable to bend it back immediately and it takes some time to adjust back to normal. so SQUATTING and intensive running is a major problem. Pray tht i get well soon. .

okie.. tC peeps. =)

im going to taiwan.

2007-03-23T08:22:00.000-07:00

byebye peeps.. im heading to taiwan now .. you can contact me on my mobile or sms me at 90428434. Haha... byebye.

2 more days to taiwan!

2007-03-21T00:17:00.000-07:00

Leaving in Taiwan with the army in 2 days time. Im excited abt the trip knowing that the 22 days im there would be a whole new experience for me. With gaining the knowledge of what is an army exercise like overseas, getting to try new food, exploring new attractions, but at the same time feeling odd and lonely knowing that all my close NS friends would not be there with me. Feeling a little lost without knowing who to hang out with cos im not really close to anyone im going with. ALL my NS frens are in Singapore. HOW GOD HOW? pls bless me with nice pple in my bunk, bless me with nice pple that i can talk to. bless me with opportunities to connect with pple back in Singapore! Most imptly, bless me with a good itinerary! haha.. let it be a good break away from home. Teach me how to appreciate what i have, and teach me how to appreciate the pple i love more. Teach me how to treasure friendship. =) God loves you.

Vision

2007-03-14T12:38:00.000-07:00

"Where there is no vision, the people perish..." Proverbs 29:18a

I believe there is no other word that describes worship better than "surrender". Surrender is the essence of worship and if you build a lifestyle of surrendering every area of your life (studies, work, relationships, habits) to God, you are actually building a lifestyle of worship.

looking out the window.

2007-03-13T15:37:00.000-07:00

im using my camp's computer now. Went for a late lunch today after deciding not to join my camp friends for lunch. Sitting down alone on an unoccupied bench, eating the rice which feels comes in lumps, all i felt was bitterness and emptiness everywhere. looking around starring at people having their meals, it feels like many monkeys in green being confine in the stupid cage waiting for their day of freedom. i felt sad esp for this army guy who eats lunch himself everyday for at least the past yr. doesn't he have any friends to eat with? is his 10 or 20 yrs more of army life going to be a bore? or maybe he just enjoys his time alone. where are his friends? does he have friends that will be concern abt his life? does he have real friends? true friends? i really dont know. And while sitting there for lunch, i receive sms from friends playing me out for some sports events, from pple telling me tht i have some meetings that i need to attend and stuffs that i need to do. WOW whee.. BTW, i got this friend of mine that walks into my office everyday to collect his printouts and all he will say to me is LIFE SUCKS! feel like boxing him sometimes.

Looking at life in general, i guess that it has full of agendas to complete, earning a living to go by, mundane daily routines, SHORT, and the list goes on and on. lastly, God's purpose to follow. Sometimes i feel that why not die now so that you have no worries and you can be closer to God. HAha.. wonder is it foolish thinking of me. i guess so cos there is still many more things i need and want to do in life.

Exactly 10 more days for my trip to Taiwan. I'm quite excited about it that i can go abroad to be free from the hectic lifestyle demands of Singapore the fact that im still troubled abt some other issues. But My God is A BIG God and he handles situations so nicely that i know all things will just fall in place for me.

Haha.. my entry feels like i'm suffering from depression! Grace of God fall fresh on me, my love ones and to the one reading this. haha. =)

irritated!

2007-03-08T07:20:00.001-08:00

Cant believe my com hanged and all that i typed for my entry TWICE is ALL GONE! my Army life, my personal life, my work, and my concerns. AHHH!!! ahhaha...

Cant Be bothered to retype. but Just to share my passion. I LOVE TEACHING. I enjoy teaching pple. I feel a sense of achievement when i watch pple grow from the stuffs that i taught them. like my cell members last time my guitar students etc etc. it makes me feel happy. =) AND now that my guitar student will be heading for Manchester for further studies, that also means lesser income for me and i have to survive on NS pay which would be detrimental on my spending powers! haha .. how how ?

Anyways, just to sum up. My prayer request would be praying that God will guide me through the last few months of NS life. Pray that he will teach me how to be a disciple of him. I need a job or a source of income where i can depend on. So Pray tht i would be able to make full use of my last few mths of NS life to earn extra money b4 real school or real work starts. Pray tht God will also provide me discenment towards what to do in Life.

GD nite.

a Season for everything

2007-02-26T07:50:00.000-08:00

In life, there is a season for everything. A Season to Rejoice, a season to smile, maybe a season to moan, a season of sadness or even a season to rest. There is a season for everything. Not everyday u will feel happy. sometimes you feel like crap, but we still need to PRESS ON! What's the season in your life now? If it's something lousy, dont worry, it will just be a passing dark clouds. If it is Good, hope tht it will always be good!

In his heart, a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. (Proverbs 16:8) Somehow, this word spoken to me when i was doing my own reading the same time when Jac was speaking abt cell stuffs. u guess what we plan to achieve, it always have to be according to God's agenda. Feeling quite empty lately. Playing the guitar for worship and leading worship in my own cell doesnt help either. it somehow just feel strange and weird and very much empty. i wonder what's happening to me. when cell was abt to close, i challenged the cell to sing their hearts out to God, and amazingly, things somehow started changed when i said a prayer. It began to have a meaning, it started to touch hearts and lives with the Love of Christ. At least i noe tht he still exists to be there to comfort us. haha. we just have to trust our master just like the little sheeps.

Bed time soon. 24hrs duty in camp tmr! heading to east coast for a 16km route march and kent ridge for movement route for the cadets. What a waste of my time but it's fine with me =)
goodnite! No more Pics. im so tired!

happy cNy

2007-02-19T19:45:00.000-08:00

So many events on CNY.. so many places to visit.. so much food to munch! but im just too lazy to do all these.. went to my ah gong's place to visit him early in the morning just to find out tht he's not home ! waste my travelling time and im now all alone at my uncle's place waiting for my mum to come. Even my uncle's family aint at home.. haha, im gg to be bored to death! but wont die la. so i resort myself into blogging. HAHA

NOt bad la, collected quite a bit of ang paos this yr consider that i collect much more last yr.. but im still satisfied. will open it up all on the 15th day of CNY and spend it all away on my hp. Hopefully it's enough. but mayb not cause it's a stupid move to spend so much on a hp. HOW HOW ?

had a steamboat session with the CNY usuals . Been doing that for a few yrs. Still, FOOD was Good. Cheese Sticks, abalone, bak gua, etc etc...

will blog another time tho.. need to find other things to do to kill my boredom away. byebye.

hello hello hello

2007-02-15T00:07:00.000-08:00

whoo, new blogskin !! so colourful!! I LIKE IT TRUCK LOADS! JEALOUS u dunch have?
There, the warrior saving his ballon head sweetie with his favourite purple balloon sword.
will update another time! =)

2007-01-06T08:49:00.000-08:00

hello!

i'm finally seeing some light!
Newcastle is winning!
whooo-hoo!
tmr i m gonna wear my black and white tee to church!
GOD I JUST KNOW THAT WORSHIP TMR IS GONNA BE AWESOME!
empower me, and may my life, and not just worship sessions be a living sacrifice of worship to you.

your lovely child,

Goodbye 2006

2006-12-30T02:06:00.000-08:00

Just like a flash, 2006 is coming to an end. But certainly, December is a cool month for me. Church Camps, mediacorp photoshoot, outing to the Zoo, catching up with old pals, the many crazy things that i did and even army makes a remarkable end to 2006!

Looking forward to 2007 somehow. Guess it wld be a fresh beginning for me. With many changes in life that wld be taking place. New phrase of army, external courses, guitar teaching, work, studies, church ministries, yada yada.. WHooooo ..... Whhheeeeeeee...

church time soon .. shall go reflect it on my real journal if i have the time. Pics time.

boo Hoo hoo

2006-12-27T08:13:00.000-08:00

This Little Light of mine.. im going to let it shine..
Life is Colourful indeed, just like the colors of 7 raindows
combine together to form a white Bright life
beaming so radiantly.

Christmas is a day full of Love,
Like the one who gave his Life for us.
Christmas is also a day full of Joy,
recieving gifts from ur love ones.
The Sense of Love is just so Strong.

Somehow, God's creation is so wonderful.
He made men in his own image.
Each and everyone created differently,
so unique and special.

It's quite a privilege to be Living!
Enjoying the wonders of God's Creation!
Full of admiration, awe and reverence.

Thank u papa.

To my love one above:
so take my hand.. take my whole life too.
for i Cant help falling in love with u.

=|

2006-11-30T09:16:00.000-08:00

Life was Never made easy,
you'll never know what's going to happen the very next moment.
It can never be predicted and only God knows.
Problems makes Life sucky,
Peace is so hard to be found.
You rely on yourself,
but somehow it's hard to find the last pc of missing jigsaw to completion.
ONLY God knows the answers to all of our troubles,
but how many times do we seek him whole-heartedly.
Do we really trust him at all cost?
sometimes we do and sometimes we dont.
At the end of it all, we just have to believe.
Nobody says that walking a christian life would be easy.
But will you still walk righteous with him despite all the tough times.
For me, It's really really difficult but I just gotta PRESS ON.
cos he knows us better than anyone else.
He wld not give us so much that we cannot handle.
He will just guide.

God will make a Way,
Where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me.
He who be my guide,
whole me closely to his side.
He will make a way.

hey peeps, do pray for me for:
1) hearts of the Army officer to be soften and the SGT who backstab me to tell the truth to make things right.
2) For the sickness (cough, breathing problems) to go away, and to be healthy in JESUS name.
3) My family! =)

bOO!

2006-11-20T14:40:00.000-08:00

shepherds lead sheep, not drive them.. wolves drives them.. hahaha, dont be wolves!!!

Rest In Him

2006-11-18T01:03:00.000-08:00

Updates after a long time.

Had Soccer on a saturday morning with SMU guys and girls. The scorching sun really killed me. Got a bad headache after coming home which spoils my afternoon. But i respect the girls out there playing on the court. Guess most of them are more fit than I am. Cant believe i took more breaks than them. haha.

After not training like a soldier for almost a year, i feel very much like a jelly. I guess i need to start training up by starting to run again. I just got downgraded last week to C2L2 and which means no more physical trainings like Jungle training for me. It's just clerical work now. Boss is pretty good to me with many offs rewarded to me.

since a mth ago, new activities were included in my life. I have been playing for the adults music band and it has been great. An all new environment. Here's the R4U - Reaching for you Band.

and here's the poem for our band by MS Wong

IC's our all 'cool-with-towel' drummerThe cymbals and toms he does not hammer
On the second keyboards is MG
Whose jokes & 'type-writer' fingers send us into a frenzy
GL strokes his guitar with a lover's hand
Now stationed overseas in a foreign land
MP's a 'cher', our handsome brother
The bass he plays with polo-raised collar
RP's our new and funny guitarist
Who also doubles-up as a hot bassist
TC claims he's got big sausage fingers
But sounds from his fender the music lingers
Last but not least we have the sleepy MS
Who wish she could play some cool jazz
So this sums up the band members of R4U
And we could barely play a tune or two

-Copyright- MS Productions.Picture edited by TC.

I still dont understand why im blogging. Prolly it's just NS and having a bit of free time that i am doing this. but i hope that the pple who are reading my blog, can keep me in ur prayer too.

Turn my eyes to heaven,

I dont have the answers.

Only you can make me see,

But i am lost without my saviour,

I am desperate for your spirit

and i hunger for you.

I can't do this on my own,

without your love to bring me Hope.

So Jesus take Over.

God my heavenly father, you know that in life, its' so human that you just want to do everything in excellence. sometimes you even hope that pple praise you for the things that you have done. But i know that if i am rightly devoted to you all these doesnt really matter. Living a life hid with Christ in God in human Conditions count. It takes God's spirit in us to make us so absolutely humanly HIS that we are utterly unnoticeable.all that is notived is that the power of God comes through Us all the time. Which is so cool isnt it.

you know God too i feel quite lousy these days. I longed for the touch from you and i think i just need it so badly from you. =) pls give it to me. !

Haha ... i guess i shd stop here. KEvyn Lee and Amanda are going pop into my hse anytime soon . ! Talk to you later God ..

(just a pic of my poly days)

When God speaks, you need to know how to decern.

2006-10-20T11:43:00.000-07:00

look at the title: when God speaks, you need to know how to decern! Seriously i really do not know how to. it is way past midnite and i just cant slp. dont really have the peace of mind to do that. It has been mind blogging over certain issues for the past few days. What are you here for on earth have u ever wondered? why do u really need to study or work so hard. or you can say, why does he have to put boys through the army. For some, life is rosy but for the unlucky, life is bad. i just heard news that i would be revocated to become an RP (no brainer and tough job) at GSAB (some amour unit) on the 25th Oct and this is really scaring me the fact that life aft the first 3 mths was indeed good. Upon hearing this news, my heart dropped and i decided to try all ways and means to run away from this. i really do not want to revocate. i had to seek help from the top 2 pple in my unit and all the necessary pple in the admin office just to get the job done for me. but things do not really go my way cos ultimately, this is my problem and not theirs. Men are selfish beings. it's human to be like tht. So, i took matters on my own hands and decided to see the medical officer to get something out of it. (im now waiting for the final verdict). i do hope is a successful to become an ASA estab.

but in the process is torrid! yes i do pray fervently abt it. i do ask God to SHOW me what is his plans for me. i just need to hear from him. Just sharing with u one of the passage from my QT. it goes, its whole strength lies in the fact that here you are put into soak before God. you have no idea of where God is going to engineer your circumstances, no knowledge of what strain is going to be put on you either at home or abroad, and if you waste your time in over-active energies instead of getting into soak on the great fundamental truths of God's redemption, you will snap when the strain comes; but if this time of soaking before god is being spent in getting rooted and grounded in God on the unpractical line, you will remain true to him whatever happens.

kinda speak to me. Moo heard tht im revocating too and he seeked me to go for it. but im Scared. it's scary to not know what's life like ahead of you. and when u ask around of where ur new unit is and where is it situated. nobody knows, not even the chief clerk who recieve the posting order for me. seriously no one noes. but for sure i knew that God knows. this is what he said aft deciding to check my blog b4 QT time. it says: "Faith does not panic, but realizes that what looks like devastating circumstances may be God's plan to bring glory to Himself by demonstrating His power." this also made me wanna type an entry abt it.

anyone who reads this or prolly it's just me reading it since i dont realli tell pple abt this blog, SO WHAT DOES ALL THESE REALLI MEANS. also during QT todae, i read, is God's will my will. It is not a qn of whether God is willing to sanctify me, is it my will? am i willing to let God do in me. . . . . . . .

oh well i really do not know. all i know is that i have this upcoming 4 days to have a proper rest in HIM above.

other than that, life has been excellent for me. was Great to start playing in the worship band again although this time to a different age grp. i guess im a very blessed child of God.

so you can pray for me:
- i will not feel stress abt army life
- God will speak to me in a dream or speak audibly to me abt his plans for me
- i will be able to listen out to God's calling
- God will grant me wisdom to manage my time and friends well
- God will give me a ministry

May the Good lord bless you and keep you. SHALOM!

My Camp just had a blackout!

2006-08-18T16:30:00.000-07:00

Today was a bUSy day. while i was working, the whole camp had a black out! The whole office was so dark that we had to stop all work. also good la.. at least can take a break for a while. Been really bz today that i even had to fork out my own money for lunch cos there was no more for me! arg !! But Good la, 2 hrs more and it will be the start of my weekend =) hooray! Looking forward to tmr's soccer tournament. Guess i wont be playing much as i dont feel well but wld definately slp early tonight to prepare myself for tmr.

Everyday is a tired day for me. Cant stop saying the word TIRED! guess i have to change the bad habit.

Anyway, i like this:
Faith does not panic, but realizes that what looks like devastating circumstances may be God's plan to bring glory to Himself by demonstrating His power.

REally la.. just need to have faith !!! haha...

the long lost post

2006-08-16T03:38:00.000-07:00

havent been here really a long time.. feels strange. but life for me is so uncertain. im 22 this year and i have not achieve much in my life in the practical sense. thinking it through, army is just wasting my time and i always have said that i will make use of my time doing something useful but i havent made my move yet. but sitting down to think abt it. i shd ge something started now since i have left with a yr of service in the army. dont want to come out of it achieving nothing in life. so im going to start being a _________ and i will do it next week b4 i leave for batam for the young meth leaders conf. talking abt tht, i hope that by going for this conf, it helps me in my walk with God, the mighty one above and it prepares me as i find my new direction in life. I have been a lost sheep somewhere and somehow. And i really need my Life back. all i need is to focus and have a aim in life. just spoke to my major about when u have the heart, you will just do the stuffs properly. need to find where my heart belongs. for church stuffs --> prolly finding a right mentor for me and hence mentoring somemore to spur them into christ likeness. Ministry to me is a BIG thing. for me, it is not only abt having fun, having fellowship but also impacting people's life. i feel that i lack in this area and God i just need you to be my pillar of support. to succeed, my source of strength comes in U. guess i will go buy a log book and name it FAITH book and whenever a miracle is performed i shall log it down so that i can use that as a testimony of u. For my career, i shall get into action.. !!!!

oh ya ... so fun planning a PLMC soccer team and i hope that i will win in this methodist tournment aft training so hard with the boys for the last 2 mths. it is trying sometimes but it is also rewarding. heres the team:

oh and here is Mr. Teo chee Hian.. our Minister of Defence of SINGAPore.. haha.. met him at st. andrews cathedral and decided that i shd be bold to take a pic with him so that when my Wo Officers scold me nx time.. i can tell them that i know the minister of def.. how corny but oh well ..

im also proud to be a SINGAPOREAN !!! LOOK AT THIS !!!!!

ok la... i shall go and rest and go for a run later on ... to Succeed in life, u just have to give ur heart and soul to it. and TRUST GOD. Amen for the dae.

bloopers

2006-06-14T09:25:00.000-07:00

haha.. shall post silly pics and videos for viewing for MYSELF !!!!

lovely bones... this is what is like when bones are so lovely. so lovely to munch and makan ! =)

thts kow and his burger mouth

went for gofest !!! felt sad for the country there.. den i felt tht God was talking to me to love that country ! east timor.

me in my army uniform with don and frens

sending the team off to kunming !!!

diving trip

2006-05-24T06:37:00.000-07:00

Diving trip to Pulau Dayang was a great escape. Nothing but just being on a sandy beach enjoying the beauty of God's Creation. The baby blue skys with sheep-like clouds, the clear waters and just pigging out, eating, drinking and some beach ball games. a cool thing to do for a getaway during the wkend. Looking forward to the next trip tho.

how nice the beach is isnt it.

the island. Pretty one

the divers! im on the RIGHT !! cool ?

such a BIG-headed fish tht reminds me of someone. hmmm ..

1st pool lesson (diving)

2006-05-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

When breathing through the regulator for the first time, i thought i was going to die as breathing is so SO difficult. PRolly not difficult but doing it in a different style that you are not used to it. It feels weird. But after that is fine. learn pretty many techniques like how to u clear off fog in the mask or clear the water that is inside the mask and breathing from ur regulator if ur Air runs out. pretty COOL ! i can see myself as a diver but somehow i just feel like a noob. Looking forward to the nx pool session Tmr !!! cool !!!

something strange.

2006-05-07T22:14:00.000-07:00

when im on the MRT today, i saw an unusual sight. There was a "Man" in black, wearing bright red lipsticks with a bit of make-up. My eyes just cant look elsewhere but to focus on shim.. I guess hes in hies late 40s early 50s cos there are signs of vivid wrinkles. Eww... then i came to think abt.. prolly he's really a shim and he went on to do "a" job in the past cos he's not satisfied abt himself.. or prolly he needs money.. thoughts of shim looking pretty before also came across my mind.. but is quite sad tht now tht strange person is old looking.. just wondering how different life for him might have been. where would his source of income be... how would he be accepted in society.. how would pple view shim? and many how what where qns to ask. but i guess is enough.

BOO!

God's Word

2006-05-01T09:35:00.000-07:00

1 cor 1:30
It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God - that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.

Hosea 4:6
My people are destroyed from lack of knowledge.

SO ulitmately, WISDOM comes from God and not our humanly flesh. It never comes from our humanly flesh cos we lack the knowledge and we need God to supply that. therefore, Wisdom is God! God is Wisdom. =) And how do we get there is by the love and the grace of God that we may attain it. God's prayer to me is that my love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that i may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ.

and in all things ACT in Love and not anything else. We shd be controlled by Christ and not ourselves la.. haha. but sometimes realli buay ta han got dispute with one another how.. seek GOD !!! haha.. do not take it before te ungodly for judgement instead of before the saints. cos the saints judge the world too. It is possible that there is nobody among you wise enough to judge a dispute between believers. onli GOD la.. is onli himm :>

Psa 112:6
Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice. Thank you God i just feel so encourage.

theres a fact spoken in the bible. Every grain offering you bring to the LORD must be made without yeast for you are not to burn any yeast or honey in an offering made to theLord by fire. Is just like when you bring honey to the offering, honey which is also means sweet and represents love, or mayb humanly love or human sweetness, you put it in the fire.. times goes by, the honey melts and becomes burnt !!! and den when it's being burnt, it explodes. why becos is finite. tht's why..

it's really true, my love that i devote to _ can only bring me thus far. God has a plan for me even before i go to him. Since he's the one tht brought us in the journey im sure is his responsibility to keep things going. Dont trust on your own efforts and dont put ur confidence in your flesh. really no use. it just hurts more at the end of the day. tht's for me.

shall end of with Micah 6:8 -
He has showed you what is good. and what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

picture time

2006-04-28T08:53:00.000-07:00

the days when i am botak. but so handsome.

long hair with my boss ah hee

my golden hair .. so handsome also

The Unpredictable

2006-04-28T06:12:00.000-07:00

Life is kinda unpredictable. U nv noe what is going to happen tmr. Anything in ur life might just change for the better or for the worst. I recieve a call yesterday from the admin office saying that i have been posted to HQ signals. went for the interview asking me to do some programming which i cannot handle and there im posted back to my old office. been a while since im there and i just finish a stay over for some spitfire exercise. Good to have things to occupy myself since i have nothing else to look forward to. the 9pm detective show is finally over and i daniel just called me and told me that he has admitted to the hospital for some leg operation. poor thing. thought of going to pay him a visit but i just dont have a car to drive myself there. think he's quite nice at least he told me that he's back. he's one of my fav cell grp member tho but he's away in china getting fatter there. LOL
anyway, God says that dont worry abt tmr for tmr will worry for itself. just going to trust God that he guides and thank God for giving me a song to give me some peace. :>

it's abt time that i should head a place where i call home.

hello hello

2006-04-23T07:29:00.000-07:00

The lord appeared and said,
"I have loved you with an everlasting love;
i have drawn you with loving-kindness.
I will build you up again and u will be rebuilt."

Jeremiah.

That's God's word for me. It always sets a reminder to me that he is faithful. He knows what i am going through and I feel comforted by his words. Anyways, sometimes you tend to know it but always choose to feel sucky and sulky. I mean what for dwell on stupid things like these when you know that there's always much better things to do other dwelling on sorrows.

hmm.. been playing tons of dota but i guess i still suck at it. Is not really healthy the fact that i play till like there's no day no night for me. For the cause that i wanna 'own' my cell grp members, it's not really worth it. haha.. but is fun la. Happy can alr. shd i buy a 19" LCD Sumsung monitor to replace my old and lousy CRT ? REalli feel like it but i rather take the money to go for diving. been wanting to go but just tht is always replace by other stuffs. I just i just need to get down on doing it.

Life in army is still the same. Just tht i need to show face to the new ISM @ 745am in the morning. I just guess he sucks cos he has so many sai kang to do. Anw, all indians have tons of sai kang. They just suck. That's the fact in army, normally the chinese hold a higher ranks than the indians and malays and their job scope is much better than sai kang. LOL. Just fixed up a computer in camp from the other junk computer. Now this com can log on to the I NET and theres Games to play too. Such a brat. dont think i will ever get down to study for my nx SAT.

been thinking a lot these few daes. my mind is cloud on with many things. church stuffs, family and frens stuffs. but anyways, glad that my family is quite close now. so happy!

meaningless

2006-04-03T05:01:00.000-07:00

looking on the normal person point of view, life is kinda stagnant and dull. You do the same things everyday. and everyday, work is a routine everyone has to do. Prolly im writing this now becos im just bored and my morale is really low these days. Have been procastinating to type it out but i finally get to do so cos i just have nothing better to do.

I guess mood swings just affects me and the people of my surroundings. I'm so sorry if i appear cold towards you cos i myself have no idea what i'm going thru. I've been rather down these few days and I just hope that people leaves me alone so that i can do my own things. And sleeping through your problems doesnt make any sense too cos when you wakes up, the problem is still there. I just hope that Life would be more meaningful when you have no problems to worry abt. the older you get the more problems you have. just saw my younger little cousin she just seem so carefree, nothing to worry abt and she just slack and play the whole dae. hmm...

Anyways, i rather work my ass off in the commercial world rather than being stuck in camp doing redundant jobs and slack my life throughout. i rather spend my time trying out new things but the government just loves to confine male species. i wonder why.

Guess im quite sick. byebye

memories of BMT

2006-03-16T02:11:00.000-08:00

this is the first 2 mths of my NS life.. really couldnt believe that im inside still. but oh well im in it.. so life for me has been great but just pretty moody these few days i dunno why. NS boys could feel lonely at times and not only that, i feel that the older you get the lesser frens you have. thats quite true cos this is the march holidays and i have onli asked my cell members out. guess they are pretty cool. Anyways.. this is life of BMT

Guns no roses

in the jungle. can imagine how dirty rite.

MArch holidaes.

2006-03-13T02:08:00.000-08:00

its the begging of march holidays. feeling so happy as NS men do get march holidays too. Somewhat, it feels like im on AWAR ! the feeling is weird. but oh well, im just happy to be home. smiles.. and i can sense a gd week ahead of me.

fullstop

2006-02-18T09:29:00.000-08:00

it's just so hard to love someone or even just pleasing them. Many times you try but many times you will fail too. there are always bound to be factors in ur life that doesnt makes things goes smoothly. Like there can never b peaceful sailing thru deep seas with big waves in the ocean. people dies becoz of shipwreak. And even nature. for e.g. in the woods, nobody harms the trees in the forest but mishaps like forest fires do happens. That applys too in human life. shit happens but u just need to know how to deal with it. what im talking abt is emmotions. it's always hard to control without the love of God. does it make sense to you?

anyways, just mentioning abt God, i dont feel lonely anymore.. so enough of blogging. byebye.

NS LIFE

2006-02-15T21:25:00.000-08:00

hi peeps, it's just another day at work. so boring that i really can't stand it. have been doin the work of a bangla for more than a week including sundays and thts terrible. Hammering, nailing, sawing, and carrying heavy loads is really not for me. now i realli know how wld a bangla feel when he works. oh well but a bangla definately earns more than i do now. haha. doing all these just to save SAF $16k. anyways, that is life for me in NS now is still 8-5. Still enjoying the nights out and the feeling of eating home cook food before my course resumes somewhere in mid march.

was bored sometime ago in NS and i was reading this book title , "run baby run" which i had since my sec sch days but never got myself into reading. This book is good and somehow made me reflect how God is so marvellous that he wont give up on us even how rotten we may be. The story is abt this boy who hates everything including his parents that he left home. And everywhere he goes and even in sch, he was a misfit becos he just hates everything. And so he turn to the gangs for acceptance. And when he was in it, he had the respect of his gang members but there was no love in him. he just hates everything. But God Sent someone to love him and touch his life tht he dedicated his life to Jesus. Since then he attended bible classes and even set up a youth centre when he graduated and God cont to use him to touch the lives of others and to minister in streets. His life changed since then .. he too had a loving wife.. to find out more... read the book !! haha.. From a junkie, he became a man life jacob to cont to pursue God and not let go.. it's like Whoaa.. so just an encouragement for those who reads my blog or happens to noe this link .. God loves U ! and no matter how lousy u feel.. he is in control of all situations.

okay... this is a botak pic of me.. looks yucky ! but i absolutely love these blokes whom i had fun with playing blokus.. and i love my gf too .. happy valentines dae love.

2006-01-23T08:09:00.000-08:00

Why Blog ?

hey peeps, i dont realli have any idea why i blog but i just feel happy that i decided to create a pg to tell you all abt the interesting happenings. But i guess for now.. the greatest joy in Life is to LAugh!! it Makes one feel happy just like ME !!

My cousins.